This is the little me. She is timid and speaks little, for she doesn’t have anything smart to say. Her heart is honest and she believes it is a grave flaw, because it makes her naiïve. She feels gullible, even stupid because of her trusting heart. So she grows up thinking she doesn’t have much to contribute. There are many words inside her, but she is afraid to give them a voice fearing ridicule and rejection. Thus, she keeps them tucked away inside her soul and penned secretly between the pages of her diaries. They are her most trusted confidants.
If she only knew her Creator made her unique, she wouldn’t feel so awkward and inadequate in her own skin. She would stop striving to be someone she isn’t meant to be. She wouldn’t compare herself to everyone because she’d understand God made her just the way he desired.
If she only knew God made her in His image, she would love rather than loathe the way she looks. She would know He does not create anything ugly, but specializes in making all things beautiful. She would believe that beauty is not defined by the size of her body, or the color of her skin, or the shape of her eyes and nose, or even by the clothes she wears. She’d understand her God-given beauty begins deep within and radiates to her outer appearance. Instead of hiding her undesirable features, she would embrace her uniqueness and carry herself confidently.
If she only knew God made her for his special purpose, she wouldn’t be so confused about what to do with her life. She wouldn’t feel worthless for over three decades, because she isn’t doing the work that awakens passion in every fiber of her being. She would go after the dreams God put in her heart rather than pursue a vocation only for its income potential. She wouldn’t compare her abilities with others and believe she is not good at a single thing.
If she only knew God created her on purpose and declares that she is wonderfully made, she would spend more time enjoying life rather than being miserable because she wants someone else’s life. She would want to live more than to die.
If she only knew there is a God who loves her passionately and sent His Son to die for her, she would realize her life does matter. She’d know He loves her for who she is and not for what she can do. She would stop trying to “be good” and do good to earn his love. She would thrive under His love and choose to live right and do good to show him her gratitude. She’d stop following traditions and practicing senseless rituals. She would follow Jesus and obey Him because this is what He desires from her.
If she only knew Jesus can rescue her from a life of sin and destructive ways, she would give him access to her life sooner. She would not waste effort and time on empty and meaningless pursuits. She would trade her simple ways for God’s wisdom and arrive at success in following his lead.
Now she knows. She knows the truth about herself and her God. She knows He gave her immeasurable worth. She knows the purpose for her life and she has peace in her heart. She no longer lives with regret and isn’t drowning in the murky waters of self-pity. She readily tells about her foolishness and allows God to use her failures for the good of all. Now she lives to encourage people towards a life of faith in Jesus, so they don’t have to live a life of “If Only…..”