I was having breakfast with my sweet friend, Manda last month when she said, “You look like you have it all together. It is a little intimidating.”
I chuckled at first, then felt bad for intimidating my friend. Believe me, intimidation is not something I am known for. It’s just not me. Actually, it’s the opposite of who I am.
After digesting Manda’s words for a few hours, I understood what she meant. My friend wasn’t intimidated by me, but by how I carried myself. She assumes I don’t have struggles and insecurities because I am calm and confident. Nothing could be more untrue!
Truth is, I have many insecurities and they vary from day to day. Lately, I’ve been insecure about my writing and my appearance. Some days I’m unsure about my parenting skills and teaching abilities.
In spite of all these insecurities, I can still be calm and confident because I place my trust in Jesus. He is the one who keeps me calm when I’m unsure about myself. He gives me confidence to do the work he has given me.
This God-given confidence also keeps me calm when troubles and disappointments come my way. Because I know God is in control, I place my concerns in his care. I trust him to work on my behalf.
No, I don’t have it all together. I have insecurities. But I am confident because my confidence is in God, not in myself.